So I decided that because there are ten chapters in the Forgotten Carols book, and ten days until Christmas, I would start tonight, and read a chapter with my girls each night. I feel like a loser of a mom most days who doesn't take the time to enjoy my kids. It is so hard to just stop everything and focus just on them.
We snuggled in by the Christmas tree, Shelby pouting because she wanted to paint and Sydney pouting because she wanted to watch tv. I had forgotten that I actually went to the play some years back. My boss had given me tickets for Christmas. And I had forgotten how amazing it was, but I quickly remembered as I started reading.
The girls were giggling at the story. I was giggling at myself because of my wonderful impersonations for each character. Slowly the pouting left and an amazing spirit filled the room. I kept having to stop reading to keep the tears from coming. The girls were hanging on every word. When we got to the first carol I wished I had the sheet music so that I could have played it for them(we will have to settle for itunes). The words to the song struck me so hard.
"LET HIM IN".
I thought about how just today, so many times I shut the door on Him. I was grumpy with my husband, frustrated with family and friends, overwhelmed with work. He was right there, waiting, willing to help me, but I didn't open the door. I do that everyday. I talked a few weeks ago in relief society about how I am the opposite of Mary. God gave her a huge calling and she gracefully said Ok. Me? I complain about every little thing I am asked to do.
Then my mind went to those that I talked to today. I thought about the spirit that they had with them and wished I had been brave enough to tell them to Let Him In.
I have to say thanks to Suz for the book. You probably didn't know how great of a gift you were giving our family. I am so grateful we let Him in tonight, I hope that we can keep Him here with us for a while.